banker

there is no escape from the event
no exit from the mansion
this game room choking with imbeciles

my place of honor at the banquet table is empty

i eat scraps with the servants in the kitchen
i raise my glass to them
and fill their glass's

was i expected to dine with a man who shot gazelles from a jeep
was i to make small talk and carouse
to recite inspirational quotes and cheerful anecdotes
surrounded by the most wondrous strange and elegant of beast's

shot
decapitated
stuffed
and mounted

at my right whole families of giraffe
at my left zebra's
all theses morbid wax idols
eternally grazing

would i say to my courteous kind host with his desert brandy and cigars

what bravery what ingenuity
how were you abel to stalk capture and kill this family of zebra
cunning and elusive as fox's
or this family of giraffe more fierce and deadly than a whole pride of lions
and here these foul gazelles
well by god you have eradicated the scourge of the earth
and single handedly prevented a second advent of the black death

now all you raise your glass's

to the great hunter may he kill everything of tranquil beauty
blessed be he our very own anti noah


but this is fantasy

i will take my place at the mongoloids table
and gorge myself with duck and spirits

and late in the night
with a dead great horned owl after kissing its lacquered beak
i will sleep under the billiard table

rooster rage

i remember werner hertzog talking about his fear of the chicken because of its "profound stupidity"

i wondered to myself if the rooster crowed in the morning because it was startled by the sun and was so profoundly stupid that it had forgotten this each sunrise now that i live next to one i realize this is not the case it crows all day and all night just because of this profound stupidity

delicados

simply the best i could live off these if only they made food like this

made an album to be distributed in a phyisical form

blog blog

it has been too long
have endured many rooms a half room and two platforms
looking forward to a semi furnished room in Mexico
am contemplating embracing Veganism blog says this aint a word
too much Tao Lin
his writing is very white in a Satie sort of way blog says this aint a word either
wondering if i will ever make an album available in a physical form
am very much in love with someone

have been

in minnesota since the 6th hung out with an old friend last night in a bum squat by the train tracks drank jim beam and pabst smoked cheap cigars looked through bum trash tooth pain faint after a month long battle i think it gave up for a season heard of a place in philly i might stay for 10 hours per week renivation looking forward to being inducted into the rock hall of failure after a succesfull show at the walker art center yes mom i am legit

beans

I have been eating a lot of beans.
re-fried beans,pinto beans,and Amy's black beans.
I like to put raw vegetables in them and wrap them in tortillas
with cheese something resembling burritos I guess.
I can't spell and must cut and paste back and fourth from this page to google
apparently i spelled google wrong but if i capitalize it its fine no red dotted line
Google.
this is one useless blog post one useless blog after another.
my teethe hurt.
when I went to the dentist last they cleaned 3/4s of my teeth one section, the southwest one if my mouth was a country ,was left alone to grow and fester I guess.
I have a wisdom tooth coming in and no dental insurance so i just eat pain pills and sweat because my liver cant take it.
I made an album over a year ago in Ireland that never got mixed this is not the first time this has happened.
I am going away soon to a future unimaginable.
Minnesota then I don't know Glasgow?
I felt that in some tiny way if I posted this it would make me feel better it does not